Hmph

This post has been a long time coming.

So about 2 months ago I lost everything that mattered to me at the time, for weeks I was depressed, down, and just didn't want to be me.

about 4 weeks ago I committed to a change in my life, after a month of that change I feel so much stronger and better now.

This week I feel good, I am a new me, I look back on my old self and see a pathetic wuss. I don't know how I survived.

A Lot has happened in a short time. A lot of bad, and a little good. I know who I am, I have been missing for a long time.

I am on the search for happiness, sort of. People say good things happen to those who wait. Well there are 2 things I want to happen to me. I want to be happy again, and I want to be in love again. I will wait until the time is right, and I believe that I will find that happiness and love again.

Strength and Perseverance will get me through.

That isn't to say I am unhappy now, I am not unhappy. However there are 2 forms of happiness, fleeting, and long lasting. I have had fleeting happiness in the past few weeks, some great times. However, I am looking for the long lasting kind. I will wait, patiently until that happens.

as a good friend once said "Strength For Today, Hope For Tomorrow" that is a great way to live. I have adopted that mantra as well.

I also have another saying that I think is apt "No Fate But What We Make" another great mantra to live by.

So friends, family, loved ones, Thank You from the bottom of my heart for helping get me back to the right place. If any of you need anything please let me know.

Carpe Diem,

Chris